By growing my relationship with God and loving Him wholeheartedly, I have unintentionally grown to love myself as well!

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

I am finding my way back to the woman I always knew I was! My name is Lashon and I am a 48 year old divorced mother of three. I was married for half of my life.  I tell you my story today with no regrets, no shame only love and compassion. A few years ago I changed and through my journey I learned a lot of tough lessons about myself and my relationship.  From the outside my marriage looked perfect.  Well, it really wasn't. I was not aware that my marriage was over, dead and virtually stagnant.

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

With the help of a great psychologist, my church, my friends and through hard work I have changed. People change for many reasons but most are caused by two main events. The first reason that people change is by choice, their minds have opened and they simply want to evolve. They crave for something better. The second reason that people change is not by choice, their heart is broken so now what do you do? You have to accept change whether you want to or not because you have to survive.

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

My marriage was a fairy tale...At least I thought it was. He loved me, I loved him. But love was not enough. I found out that loving someone is complicated. Love is NOT what you say day after day. Love is in your actions and what you do on a daily basis. Love is how you treat some one mostly unspoken. I missed all of that. It went completely over my head. Anyone can say the words "I love you."  And anyone can say "I care for you."  Those were words I heard every day. Back then I didn't know better I had to listen with my ears to his words but WATCH his actions. You know what? They didn't match! I truly believe that during my marriage I lost myself slowly. Instead of me being Lashon the mother, USN Veteran and Surgical Technologist, I was CMC Campbell's wife.  There is nothing wrong with being a wife but you should NEVER sacrifice who God created you to be to make someone else happy. I did that time and time again. I died a little inside with each passing day. Forgetting my conversations with God and losing myself in the process. 

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

Through it all, I prayed, I meditated and I had faith in God. I was reborn and I became stronger, smarter and more focused. Today I am Lashon the Mother, USN Veteran, Surgical Technologist and a woman of God. This is the new and improved version of myself. Scars and all I am still here. I am still standing. My Divorce was painful. My isolation and my rejection was hard to bear. This man that I loved completely only gave me part of himself. I never truly had his heart. I only had a fake promise of "Forever."  Divorce was also a rebirth for me. I could hear that voice again. I could feel the fire inside of me again and I was not silent anymore. During my marriage my silence meant acceptance. I was not worthy of any real happiness. I do not blame him at all. I blame myself. I accepted everything that he did and I went along with the program. I was trying desperately to keep my family together. I was so empty inside and my silence translated into acceptance.  

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

Our marriage is now over and we have two entirely different lives now. I hold no bad feelings for my ex husband. He didn't break my heart, I broke my own heart.  There is a moral to this story. Two people can divorce and find the happiness that they deserve. I truly believe that. In the process of my own divorce, I found every piece that was missing in my life. Both physically and spiritually. At the absolute worst time of my life, I found my voice and I found my light. My light now shines brighter than it ever did before. We both have the very best that life has to offer right now. I have a great man/partner/friend that treats me like a queen. Paul is the love of my life. Everything that I went through was the path that led me to pure happiness. I love the fact that my ex husband is now happy and that he has someone who he truly loves. That is what life is all about. Sharing your time, energy and space with someone who loves and respects you. God is good. Today I am finally finding my way back to the woman I always knew I was! I am happy and filled with a PEACE that only God can give. 

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

What about you? Have you had a tough fight? If so, I would love to hear about it right here at the blog. Until then, I will be praying for you.

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MY CRAZY LIFE BLOG 2018

Thankful for my 3 kids that inspire and encourage me on a daily basis. I am so proud that God chose me to be their mother.





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Lashon Campbell
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